Is PAIN A NECESSITY........!!!!!!!!!????

Matrix says --To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human....And what are the other things which really makes us human .... the things that please us -- love , realtions , belongings , religion,lust -- and ofcourse the things that stings us --loss,betrayal,anger..PAIN...
Yesterday i was discussing same thing with a friend of mine. There was a thought provoking response ........
There was a little girl , about 3 years old . And like all little ones she used to play with the things around . But not really like all little ones , she once pierced those little fingers of her into innocent twinkiling eyes. With nobody watching on her , she took out her eyes with her hands. Can anyone ever imagine such sort of brutality on herself. The parents were shocked on seeing their daughter. Dumbfounded by all the blood and the gory scene around,they rushed her to the hospital.Doctors desperately operated her and restored her eyes. There were stitches deep in the forehead and inside the eyes. Atleast she was able to see.
Few months later the girl torn the stitches with her fingers again... What was the thing against which she had so much of rage . But at such a small age what worst can she have.
She was again rushed to the hospital. The parents and doctors were shocked to notice up that even her jaw is broken. And to add up to that , she had broken it a month back . The whole misalignment was shown on her face and she was carrying the broken jaw for a month.

How can anyone suffer so much pain .?? and that too self inflicted .... ?? either she was so strong to resist to so much of pain .. or .......... WAS SHE JUST INSENSITIVE TO PAIN...????
Without the sense of pain in our life, just imagine what the significance of happiness would be .
Einstien was correct when he said that everything is relative. If there is no awareness what actually is suffering,how could we discover how the contentment and happiness will actually feel.
What difference the girl could have felt between that magical and soothing motherly touch,kisses full of love AND the painful piercing feeling in eyes.

Not everyone is lucky enough to get a chance to scream with locked jaws and choked throat ...
and i always feel that happiness comes not with withdrawing from pain, but from feeling it right upto that death,so that beyond that it becomes inadmissible...to the extent that laughter can be extracted from it .......

Sweet Deception.....HR Managers...cunning ,very cunning indeed !!!!!!

Since the ages fox was considered as a symbol of tactfulness and cleverness. But this reputed status of her is in danger ........ the strongest contender being the contemporary HR manager ....

He is in a strong quest to overthrow her and gain the crown .....

The corporate era has just begun and Hr managers are its thrivers .... people to manage people ... !!!!!!!! what a concept ....??? these are those chosen ones who posess the art to say the wrongful in the right manner .They cut your caper daily and get paid heavily for that ...... following are some honey punches ,they hit....with sweet bruises

DIFFICULT TO SURVIVE HERE :::: usually said to the highly motivated scapegoats, to get 18 hours of work instead of 12.

I'll GET BACK TO YOU::: usually after an interview,said in a sweet manner ,to keep the eternal hope alive after the dreadful interview.

THE WORK ENVIRONMENT IS EXCELLENT ::: usually to the new joinees, who are on bench , to console that they are enjoying a lot,instead of working .

WE ARE THE PAYMASTERS::: usually they pay well initially but dont expect hike in a mortal's lifetime.

YOU ARE PROMOTED AS SYSTEM ARCHITECT FROM S/W ENGG::::usually,for one dissatisfied in some profile,so that even though he changes the name of profile , but u do the same bugging work, without a single penny hike in the salary .

THIS IS THE MNC CULTURE::::usually when u ask to change your midnight shift , to normal working hours.

I AM ALWAYS INTERACTIVE :::usually warns u that dont even think of speaking in between when he is discussing your doomed shifts and underpayed work....

I'VE BEEN HERE FOR 20 YRS, I DONT SWITCH OFTEN:: usually suggests you to stuck to the same kinnda bullshit work and dont utter a word even if u are underpayed .. and hey hey hey never think to switch ....

I WAS JUST GOING TO TALK ABOUT YOUR APPRAISAL:: usually told to the lucky people who get a better offer somewhere else and just gave their resignation..

I PROMISE TO PUT YOU INTO R&D FROM TESTING , JUST WAIT 1 MONTH::: usually to indicate that drop your offer and wait in the same firm, so that when the offer gets over he can beat the shit out of ur ass ... Ultimate

hey got a call from the same joker ...MY Hr manager .... need to leave ..... well prepared for the same honey punch .. he he he

ha ha ... The Mind jus does'nt let go ...

Well just to start up , how many of us are very clear of what we are going to do .... very clear means very clear ...... hmm...does it depends upon person to person... ??? I say it depends upon the state of mind. When everything goes well and all plans are up on the place...there lies no need to look forward because contentment pacifies the ambitions ... and it is nothing to feel bad about..because our mind is made to work like this ....
But,for those who are so called ambitious in this world, the environment and the social structure has framed the mind in such a way that every achievement and every failiure is jus reduced to an assignment to complete.... leading to the same result ... discontentment(is it negative ???? )

Just introspecting our lives in a braoder perspective , lie down with your eyes closed .. and just give a deep thought ,what is all this for ... ???? afterall what is that we are seeking ....--- seeking when we get up from our bed ... seeking when we talk to people ---seek when we choose a job ..seek when we love someone ... seek while we eat .. seek while we write ... seek while we pay respect to someone ....---i mean everything u can imagine .... the answer is no doubt different for every person...hmmm ....but the end result is only one thing ...happiness ..is'nt it ....???!!! think for a while ...relate any of ur concious or subconcious deeds .....the answer is that life is short so extract the nector from where ever u can ....its jus a matter of time to tame the mind to extract the very nector ,for which we are here ,from all situations .... ha ha ha ...too much idealistic ...shee ..!!! how often can we do that ..always? once ? twice ? ..never ????? .. hey ppl just because this bloddy mind does'nt let go .....

I feel it does'nt require a life of an ascetic to do all that ... well the spiritual aspect tries to achieve this "let go type" feeling by killing the desire itself ..... the very thing that makes us human ..... ha ha ha ... so .. is it viable to look for detatchment from everything .....may be,may not be ... seriously i dont know anything ... so, the best option left is to try to let go the things, over which we think we can control our mind .... and detatch from those where we cant do so ..!!!!
not really ... ????? its not as tough as the previous option.....

another option will be to booze out .... well when i do it .. i feel the same "let go" ...which otherwise takes a session of hard meditation....ha ha ha .. easy way out haan ..... if u cant tame the mind ... loose its control .... but beware this loose mind will be like an untamed wild animal,it can silent sit in a corner or it can well do the devastation ..of the self ...............

Because the mind jus does'nt let go .....

Hunt ..... oooh .. long after the first blood

So small I was when the parents and the mentors kept explaining that plan today and act this very moment. I used to get impressed and moved by the so called preachings and then thought at the back of mind that slowly and steadily it will become the part of may nature ...i ll learn just by experience ....actually who cares ... but as we say that tomorrow never comes ... it actually never comes ... u can bet me millions over that .... preconcieved notions and predetermined conclusions has led no one nowhere .
The thing that matters is the the moment u get the first blood of something and u move forward for the onslaught. Delaying it like a lazy and hungry lion waiting for the lioness to fetch the food ,keeps u sleeping only ...... unfortunately i have no lioness to do that for me ..... and am not a lion either ...
So its been a hell lot of time since i got the first blood, thininkin that i can write .. atleast write something which cannot bore me .... but all that thinking work used to start on the thinking seat in toilet ...or after rather before those fantasies in the night .. and it was faded by the excuses of lack of time,focus on career etc etc .. and all that bullshit .....
Well this moment or this decision would have also run into oblivion and the desire would have been delayed many tommorows ......
There was no motivation as such ... i just went through the orkut profile of someone and clicked over her blogspot link ..... i was switched over to the page which started playing songs .... was moved by the totally unheard version of "Aint no sunshine when she's gone " from Notting hill.
It was jus awesome .... i thought of creating my own jukebox playlist ... but the process involved registration into the blog world ....
The whole blog was created .....then i was with my sniffer called google to sniff for a jukebox player which can play my favorites while other can read wat i write ....unfortunalety i could not spare the patience to find it ..but rather embedded a website visit counter into my blog ... well as the say ..... "Bhaagte chor ki langoti hi sahi " ... but someday i'll embed that music player ...and many things into this ..
Now since blog was created ....and i customised it ...like those little girls decorating their barbie dolls ...
Dont u think i drew the first blood once again .... oh yeah .... and i wanted that before i get lazy ..i should write before that ' fire' dies ... so here is my first onslaught ... ofcourse online .... and lets see how hot the fire can get .. and how brutal this hunt can be ... chill chill ....
i am gonna enjoy it ......................